2011

2010.
took me all year to realize. in 10seconds i thought about it and
then i understood. I had a plan, since i was little i worked on
this plan, it was all i ever thought about, dreamt about, wrote
about. I would find a boy, i would fall in love, i would loose him,
he would come back, i’d open up a shop, he would propose to me the
day i opened that shop, we would get married, have 2 kids named
suvannah and noah, we would grow old and never love another. you
see with plans, they never work out… i know. with goals, they
seem forever to reach. we werent meant to have a plan, i wasnt
meant to have a plan. with no goals you cant be disappointed, you
can only be suprised in how well you’ve done, and how far you’ve
come. i was the only one with these plans,and rules and goals that
i got so caught up in i forgot about everything that mattered to
me, being happy. I let myself be disrespected, walked over, treated
like shit. in two days its 2011 and im not going to wait until then
to change what ive been wanting to change. to stop chasing to not
over think every little thing to stop giving arseholes chances to
take risks to be happy to take every day as it comes and to let
go.