and i sat for a moment

and realized how much i dont appriciate things in my life,
i was delt a hand from god and i was delt this hand for a reason.

Everyone is here for a reason you dont have to find out what reason that is.

As i type on this laptop keyboard he tells me his girlfriend is sick with cancer,
that its spread and not recovering well.

Which makes me realize how selfish i am with my life sometimes.

Things like this happen alot to people, we arent the ones that are suffering they are.
so once in a while the healthier people need to stop and think a little and help others out.

if you dont apriciate your life, well start because you dont know when you will be delt a not so good hand.

stop worrying about things and start living.

ill be here at the end of the day.

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would’ve walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain’t gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you

i want

your love and all your lovers revenge.

She said

Angel eyes you can’t always win over the one you love, they will can love that you will fight for them or deny it, but deep down they know you cared enough to give it everything you had and gave everything with your strength to prove your love. You see angel eyes your kind, so would you rather loose because you were so kind and loving or win while being bitter and selfish?
That’s why I call you angel eyes, your kind hearted soul lays within your eyes from the first time someone looks into them.
Remember love is patient, love is kind it does not envy it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self seeking it Is not easily angered.
Your love will come along one day and those butterflies will reappear and you will love again.

hate doesnt live here

two faced people is enough to make me hate the human race.

And in my defence

Idlike to slit your throat with the knife you left in my back …

this is the truth

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking.
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
I Corinthians 13:4-8

Curiousity

I wonder how it is to be so selfish to sin.
To twist there arm up there back
and tell them what to do.
To make all the decisions and the rules.
I wonder how it is to be so bitter and sweet.

Two thousand and six.

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it’s high time
I’ve been waiting on my own, too long
When you hold me like you do
It feels so right, oh now
Start to forget how my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feelin’ like I can’t go on.
Turnin’ circles time again
Cut like a knife, oh now
If you love me got to know for sure
Cuz’ it takes something more this time
Then sweet, sweet lies, oh now
Before I open up my arms and fall losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
When you kiss me on that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin’ ain’t this life so sweet?
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
Cuz’ whose to worry if our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don’t you notice life goes on
Won’t you kiss me on that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singin’ ain’t this life so sweet

This has got to end

But only time can end it.
I hope.
This has to stop
but only in due time will it stop.
I hope.
We live our lives with an idea of how things will go
but we all getting a little suprise when
things do fall apart
where we do get a little hurt
when we love more than once
and we get hurt more than twice

first loves may never properly last but they are forever resting on your heart.

So you to, will lay where the broken hearted lay.

I like that with each new fling you become more and more numb.
I’ll get it right one day.